Skip to main content

But I trust Him

It's been a while since I've shared anything about my walk with God with you guys. Truth be told, I've been going through a bit of a rough patch and I'm so lost.

But you want to know something amazing?

Even though I feel far from God, He still loves me.

After my week work experience at the Schools Christian Worker project, I made something on my wall. I divided my wall into two sections- Prayers and Answer to prayers.

Trusty post-it-notes in hand I started to pray. I'd write them down with a sharpie, put the sticky note in the prayers section and pray.

Over the days I would see the post-it-note and remember to pray about what was on the wall. I'm not going to lie, I was so pessimistic about doing this. I really didn't believe God cared about the small things in my life. I thought He only cared about the big things like my future, not my health or my time at college or even basic situations at home like the key getting suck in the front door.

But I was very much proved wrong, the answer to prayer section started to fill up.

The saddest thing about it was that I would have missed almost every single one of those answers to prayer if I hadn't been keeping track of them on my wall. Before, I'd been praying but never really expecting an answer, so I never looked out for them.

God really has been so good and He really does care about the little things.

Now I'm left wondering, how many answered prayers have I missed? How many times has God shown His love for me and I've been blind to it? How many times has He gone without thanks or praise?

Thinking about that though makes me realise just how much God loves me. He's always been there helping me but I've never noticed. I've never noticed and yet He still did it. The amount of times He's kept me safe and I didn't see it but despite this, He still carried on doing it. The amount of times He's shown his love for me and I've not returned it. Knowing this though, He still loves me.

What an amazing God He is.



This morning I was reading a blog called Scattered Journal pages, I'll put a link to the post, she said something that really stuck with me.

I don't know- But God does and I trust Him.

My future has a big dirty question mark above it right now. It's a heavy burden that clings to my mind.

I don't know where I'm going. I don't know my future or what's going to happen. I don't know what will happen at home, if one day I'll come home from college or work only to find that we no longer have one. I don't know why my relationships with people are breaking down. I don't know why my dad has stopped talking to me. I don't know if I'm ever going to recover.

I don't know- but God does and I trust him. 

Arabella

Comments

Popular Posts

EXCITING NEWS!

Hiya all.

It's been a while since my last post hasn't it?

A lot has been happening in these past moths My life has taken a roller-coaster of a journey. One full of pain and excitement, love, self acceptance, hard conclusions and fear, lot of fear, it's been quite something.

During this time it might look like I've taken a break from blogging and in some ways this is true, I've taken a break from Acting Natural, but I've been blogging more than ever before.



So today I'd like to introduce you to Lost In The Story.

This is my main blog and is the reason I haven't posted in several moths, I've moved sites.

So why have I done this?

Reason one being that as a blogger I've started to expand and grow. I love Bloggers simplicity but as I started to write more I wished for more control of my blog and the only way I could do that was to move platforms. It's been a bit hard learning a much more complex system but I'm loving it.

I've also changed …

Snap Shots

Not too long ago I got sent a news article. The title was STOP USING INSTAGRAM.

Catchy right?

It was wrote by some people who collected a bunch of research and data to find out what social networking platform was the worst for teenagers and youths mental heath. You can probably guess what their results found judging by it's title.

I didn't necessarily agrees or think very highly of the article as it was aimed at parents to scare them and read to be really bias against any social networking platform going, so for that reason I'm not wanting to share a link to it, but you can look into it if you'd like, it shouldn't be that hard to find. Whilst I didn't agree with the article it was good food for thought.

One of the first few posts I ever wrote on this blog was called Perfection on social media and it was one of my most popular posts for a long time. After reading that article, I think that topic is very much something that I'd like to discus once again.




I a…

Growing Pains

Growing up is a scary thing and in all honesty, I can't stand it.

I don't understand that at the age of 18 and now being considered an adult I have to act differently and all my old childish but comforting habits need to be demolished. I don't understand why I get disapproving looks when I don't do things others my age do.

Now that college is over people of my age are making the exciting transition to Uni or full time work, but mainly uni.

I'm not doing this.

I've just came out of college with an BTEC Extended diploma and a Sup diploma in forensic science. It's more than enough to get me into uni but I'm going back for a 3rd year at the hell hole more commonly know as college to study business.

When people ask why I'm not going to Uni in September my reply is usually along the lines of "I have a years left of funding and I want to make the most of it." This isn't a lie. I do have a years left of free funding so I might as well get anot…